It’s already in our lives, running the show quietly
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“That was the starting point — to look at my anxieties,” she said.
The resulting photograph, Pressure Point, showed her sitting awkwardly on the beach next to a svelte and toned friend in a bikini.
Davis began shooting herself in everyday situations, initially choosing images that were “safe and easy” such as hanging out her washing or having a meal with a friend. “I wasn’t thinking about an audience and I knew I didn’t have to show them to anyone, so it didn’t inhibit me from taking pictures that were hard to look at,” she said. But as the project went on she started to challenge herself to reveal more flesh with pictures of her trying to do up the waistband of her trousers or showing a close-up of her chin.
Over the following years, Davis, a Brooklyn-based photographer who specialises in portraits, amassed hundreds of photos of herself. But nearly a decade after beginning her project, she realised that despite the years of self discovery, her weight remained unchanged.
In 2011, she decided to undergo weight loss surgery by having a gastric band fitted. As the weight came off — 52 kgs within a year — Davis came to realise just how much it had dominated her life. “It was all about my body and discomfort and dealing with pressures that I felt, like feeling scrutinised by people’s eyes.
“I felt judged in society. On the subway I felt that people were starring at me or making fun of me,” she said. “Even if it was not in a verbal way, it was in a look, people staring or rolling their eyes.”
The most upsetting experiences came when people tried to temper comments about her weight with what they saw as kindness. “People would say ‘oh you have such a pretty face but your body needs to change’. Or ‘you’re so overweight but you’re pretty so if you lose weight you’ll be happy or have a boyfriend’,” she said. “That happened at a wedding. A woman said that to me and I burst into tears.”
As the number of obese people increases worldwide — creating looming public health crises in some countries — Davis said the issue had become a minefield. The most vici-ous prejudice is expressed under cover of anonymity in online forums and comment boxes, she says.
People in the public eye, meanwhile, such as the governor of New Jersey Chris Christie who opted for gastric bypass surgery without publicly announcing it, risked incurring the wrath of the public. “All of a sudden he was losing weight and the public was so angry that he didn’t come forward with this,” she said.
Having concluded that her own problem was caused by a psychological need to comfort eat, Davis knows she will have to work hard for rest of her life to maintain her new weight. But she is grateful for the surgery without which she believes she could never have achieved it.
“Some people are ‘fat positive’. But I could never see myself as beautiful or subscribe to that,” she said.
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